A worthless chap I am
One who cause sadness to this girl
Or am I a tool of God
To bring that girl to Him?
When KL messaged me just now, I was swept with feeling. Maybe I was touched. The innocence in the words and smileys in her sms reminded me of her character: her quiet strength, quiet and increasingly being vocalized confidence.
How I hope that my partner will attend church service with me. But, I suppose that I will never be happy.
I am a greedy soul.
I gobble up the ideas of this world.
It’s making me uncontented, unhappy.
“More, more, more!” I yelled.
The marginal benefit of each achievement increasingly decreases,
No longer pleasing me as much as they do in the past.
It’s a scary thought.
Could I possibly be numbed by achievements?
My heart doesn’t feel anything now.
Scary once again.
I am losing my humanness.